the hope died…
finally.
it was so stubborn in not dying
so reckless and so hopeful
of a few more minutes
of another sunlight
of one more …..
ok, i would be honest here
the hope was hopeful of so many things
and that was the problem
but, don’t you worry now
it is history
it wouldn’t bother you anymore
with dreams and longing ness
i hated that shadow,
i hated that         ….
no, you don’t disrespect the dead
you put a garland on its cold, dead cold
whatever is left
and hope that hope would not
be there again
on a new morning
on the first rainfall
to surprise you
again… and again and again.
amen

sand grains
drops of rain
a breeze, a faded smile
and eerie silence
of my jostling thoughts
as usual…
then you just walked past me
i saw you
u were in a hurry, went away
as usual…
i stopped to take my breath
steadied the steps
moved slowly
as usual…
bloodless bleeding
and living and reliving
the impossible moments
knitting dreams
just to be shattered
losing something that
never been mine
even tears are scarce
huge void
filling again with
sand grains
drops of rain
as usual…

will u let the pagans burn in peace
we love to be burnt
we are born to be in hell forever
lessons never learnt…

hell is no place for a beauty
hell is where we belong
let there be no smile here
only melancholic song….

hell is where the heart is reborn
as the phoenix from ashes
again and again a violent death
hope and fear clashes…

will u let the pagans burn in peace
let the heat rise
may your beauty reign over heaven
hell is our paradise….

“And you give, and you give
And you give yourself away.
With or without you
With or without you
I can’t live
With or without you.”                 – U2

One of my favourite songs and i am sure those who had heard it fell in love with
it as well…..But what is this lyrics??? I mean, c’mon…the probabilities don’t add
up,right? (Never mind, just had a tute at midnight… so)
Anyways, i had a chat with one of my good friends (rare breed though they are)
One-Who-Cannot-Be-Named.I asked him -man,what with this weird lyrics? Now,
mind you, he is as genius in all these matters as dumb I am… so,i naturally didn’t
make head or tail of his answer..but once One-Who-Cannot-Be-Named utters
something,it-cannot-be-ignored….So, here it is what i got amongst all those blahs

I have dreamt often enough
to be with you
I have dreamt often enough
to nightmares new…

Can’t sleep now, can’t dream
I see your eyes
Can’t sleep now, can’t dream
hear good-byes

Path you take crosses mine
every now and then
Path you take crosses mine
I hear Beethoven

Deep down in my empty heart
I know you aren’t mine
Deep down in my empty heart
hope I am thine

I just see you pass me by
remain unseen
I just see you pass me by
it might have been

They say it might have been
I don’t want it to be
They say it might have been
dying, part of me…….

dying slowly
dying slowly
dying… part of me

These are just some lines in Bengali i jotted down after reading  “Na Hanyate”
by Maitreyi Devi…an academy award winning Bengali novel
(this term is controversial, but for the moment let it be)

Jano aaj onekdin por
Tara r dike cheye chhilem
Tumi haschho jani
Bhabchho matha ta ekkebare gechhe
R ami bhabchhi
Proshno tar uttor

Tumi rege bolbe jani
Bhalo afai
Kiser proshno r kiser e ba uttor

Ami tokhon hoye jabo darshonik
Hese bolbo 0i chhayapoth tay
Amrita r Mircha jodi amar
Tobe je manush ta tirish bochhor
Bhalo baslo Amrita ke
Se tobe kon poth e chhaya?
Eka e thake? Kiser dosh e?
Kaal joyi prem noy tar..tai???

Jani proshno ta elomelo
Asole ki jano
Aaj onekdin er por
tara r dike cheye chhilem…..